revolving door

Yesterday Rich had another MRI to check on progress of the tumor. At the entrance to the imaging center are two doors. One is the simple open-and-walk-through type. But this is not the preferred entrance.

A sign says, "Please Use the Revolving Door."

So we do, again and again. It's not as if we don't have a choice. It's not as if anyone is watching.

Habit? Obedience? Possibility that this may be the better option?

Chordoma is not something that can be walked through. There's the experimental drug, its monitoring, the rhythm of tests, trips to New York, meeting with doctors, awaiting the results. Round and round and round. This is about management, not curing.

Still.

Why not walk through? Each turn is new, even if unwished. We can be stuck in the emotion, but not the moment.

So.

Rich's tumor has not grown. He will continue as a test ferret on the Sutent (ferrets being the only other species known to support chordomas). We will contine our trips to New York, although now Rich gets a "leave" for four weeks. He will continue managing loss of use of his arm, treating the elevated blood pressure and foot blisters that are some of the side effects.

So it still goes, round and through.

Candace